Let’s Blog Over a Baby??
Yup, it’s HAPPENING!!! I can’t even believe I’m typing this: We’re PREGNANT. I mean, really I AM pregnant but I guess Ralph does get some credit in the whole making the baby part. To be honest I don’t think it’s 100% sunk in for either of us yet. Especially me, but with every ultrasound the reality becomes more clear. Hearing the heartbeat that first time brought feelings I didn’t even know existed!
To be honest, when I found out I was pregnant I was kind of shook. I knew Ralph really wanted to have a baby this year, but I was more like ehh… if it happens, it happens. If it doesn’t I’m fine with that too. Honestly, we had a lot going on, so getting pregnant eventually became something I was trying not to do, and considering a lot of circumstances it was definitely the last thing I wanted. but here we are…
The First Trimester
My symptoms have been the worst! Shortly after finding out I was pregnant the nausea hit me so hard. I was eventually diagnosed with Hyperemesis Gravidarum which is extreme nausea and excessive vomiting. I lived next to a toilet. I was in and out of the hospital numerous times. Sometimes multiple times a week, and eventually that turned into hospital stays. I would vomit sometimes up to 27 times day. Between stress and HG I’ve lost 45lbs. I wouldn’t wish this diagnosis on my worst enemy. It took a huge toll on me.
Tired. I was super tired and could nap all day if I could.
Cravings: The first twelve weeks of my pregnancy the taste and smell of anything would destroy my soul. My friends would joke and tell me I had senses like a bloodhound. I am so tiny that during this period my family and friends, and their families would do anything to get food in my system. Every single time it ended up with me by a toilet.
Due Date: Baby is due this fall.
Confession: I am on this journey which I know is incredible for some. For me I’m mostly looking forward to not being pregnant. This has taken a huge toll on me. I know that this is a blessing, and something that should be cherished and enjoyed… and hopefully I get to that point, but right now – pregnancy? Yea this is some straight bullshit.
Xx
Ralijah
Thoughts?