“The Marks Humans Leave Are Too Often Scars.” ~ John Green
Let’s Blog Over Invisible Scars…
Whew Chile… I had to roll my entire body over to get out of bed this morning, haha! Thank God my brother is here. This growing bundle of joy is slowing me down, but it’s not stopping me. Trust me when I say he’s growing. I had a business meeting yesterday, and my neighbor was like “OMG I just saw you a week ago and your stomach is like 2 times bigger! You are so tiny. Are they doing a C-Section? I can’t see this being a vaginal delivery.” Quatro is not playing with his growth spurts, but if they cut me open to get him out… We about to be beefing on his birthday. Haha!
So moving on. This weekend was a celebratory one. Skylar turned fifteen, and my brother flew in to surprise her. Not just him, but many relatives flew in. I guess we like her a lil bit. I hosted a very fancy soiree for her which we’ll talk about later this week. Since posting this soiree and everything leading up to it – it’s actually been my most requested “Give The Deets” topic this week.
So I’m usually just lucky in life, but 2020 has been a season of a series of unfortunate events. My life is like a movie with so many unexpected plots and turns that even my mind is blown away from time to time. I know these things aren’t meant to keep me down. For where I’m going and what I want to do I know issues will arise all the time. It’s necessary for me to go through everything now rather than later so that my future self will be able to handle even more.
They say your best teacher is your last mistake. *E X H A L E S – Not every battle is public. Not every scar is visible. Lord knows I’ve made some mistakes along this journey called life, and he also knows that my last mistake has left some deep, deep scars. Progress accelerates when you actually admit to your own mistakes. I’ve been courageous about making changes and learning from challenges I’ve faced. Seeing my therapists (plural) and with the support of my friends, family, some in-laws, (yes I said in-laws. Extended ones. Not the immediate ones. They’ve been reaching out and I’m just as shocked as the next person. I guess they wanna see Quatro, lol) and my priest I know that only God can turn this mess into a message. This test into a testimony. This trial into a triumph. A victim into victory.
I am growing and the growth is the reason for this glow.